Everyday waking up and failing might suggest a recurring cycle of self-doubt and perceived failure. The references to abundance, not caring about longevity, and a willingness for 'anything' could indicate a dissatisfaction with material success or superficial comfort, pointing to a search for deeper meaning and authenticity.
The mention of the 'ugly and dirty' things happening in the singer's body could represent physical health issues, ageing, or possibly mental health struggles. The lines about telling oneself they're fine and trying their best hint at attempts to self-soothe or self-motivate, yet admitting there's a problem with 'keeping well'.
The noon verse extends the cycle of self-deprecation and disillusionment into the day, with a resistance to advice, yet an openness for 'whatever'. The lines could also suggest that the character often finds themselves at odds with others ('never agree with anything ever') and may struggle with their relationships.
The song mentions 'Feelings of fun and general good happy vibes' turning violent, possibly indicating rapid mood swings or the volatile nature of the character's mental state. The mention of friends being 'enablers' could suggest the presence of unhealthy relationships or behaviors.
The song's nightly verse encapsulates a sense of despair, self-doubt, and a struggle with self-control. It highlights a paradoxical desire for change and progress but also resistance to it. The repeated question 'Am I ready?' emphasizes this conflict.
The line about a 'short fuse in my hippocampus' could reference the artist's struggles with memory, learning, or emotional control, as the hippocampus is a part of the brain associated with these functions. 'I haven't been there but I've read the pamphlets' might suggest a struggle with self-diagnosis or feeling overwhelmed by information and advice regarding mental health.
Finally, the song seems to express a kind of existential angst ('Can you blame me if I want to damn this all to hell?') before returning to the recurring theme of perceived failure, emphasizing the cyclical nature of the struggles being expressed.
In conclusion, the song seems to be about internal struggles with self-image, relationships, mental health, and a search for meaning and authenticity amid superficial comfort or success. It's an exploration of a character who is self-aware and honest about their struggles but finds it challenging to break their cycle of negativity.
lyrics
Every day I wake up in the morning and I FAIL! FAIL! FAIL!
I’ve got it easy, man how can I resist? It’s a life of abundance.
So what if I don’t live until a hundred and ten, I’m still ready for anything
Those doomy thoughts concerning why I exist are so easily silenced!
And I know there’s things happening in my body that are ugly and so dirty
I try to tell myself I’m fine as I am, I try to do the very best that I can
And I’ve established that I have a problem with keeping well
Every noon I head on out the front door and I LOSE! I LOSE!
I'm not contrary, I just never agree with anything ever
I never take advice that’s given to me, hey but I’m down for whatever!
Feelings of fun and general good happy vibes can turn easily violent
And I know that my friends are only trying to help, but when they don't, they’re enablers!
Around the corner is another onslaught of other perfectly edge-cutting retorts
I’m so addicted to the chase for some sort of victory
Every night I crawl back into bed and I’m WRONG! I’M WRONG! IT’S ALL WRONG!
I’m glad, I’m fortunate, I love that you’re here to witness my bullshit!
Just let me gorge until it streams from my pores! I can’t get sa-tiated
I need to learn to plough on forward and go in reverse at the same time
And I know these things can only change in my life if I’m ready. Am I ready?
Is there a fuse short in my hippocampus? I haven’t been there but I’ve read the pamphlets
Can you blame me if I want to damn this all to hell? All to hell. All to…. Hell.
Every day I wake up in the morning and I FAIL! FAIL! FAIL! FAIL! FAIL! Etc
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